its insane when you realize the day you feel something again. Its probably the same feeling some douche bag Christian gets when they become born again. The air feels crisper, the days seem too short. The people. Ahh the people here. How i can remember being new here. Fresh. I feel almost new here again. I guess i took a lot of things for granted after time. Its something everyone cant help but doing. Then some where along the way you just realize how amazing the people in your life are. How much people go out of there way to help me here. In everyday binds and just being there to take some bong hits with and laugh until i piss myself a little.
Adam and I going home for the holidays pretty much summed everything up. Beautiful. I never thought anyone could make me feel this way. Even after a year it still feels refreshing. Not tiring. There is no arguing, only talking and being trusting and open minded. The age diffrence probebly has a lot to do with it. His expirence and me trying to have a positive outlook on things. Trying not to have a 20 year old mind set is working wonders. And as for friends, it couldn't look anymore brighter.
After time. After things becoming so morbid and pathetic in my life I sit here and am honored to have went throught the things i did. Said the shitty things iv said, was inscure and pathetic for a long period. Now iv learned. And with the washed out saying of change comes from with in.. I couldnt agree more.
I'm still at second spin. Trying to get a job as a mail carrier for the post office. A government job making 20 bucks an hour would able me to go back to school next year and get my feet back on the ground. Everything is good here accept the money situation. Money isn't shit until something breaks. And getting a car again would be amazing. No more bus. I will take this all in as things just get better.
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