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Subject:fabulous jetstreaming denver
Time:02:21 am
Current Mood:highhigh
its insane when you realize the day you feel something again. Its probably the same feeling some douche bag Christian gets when they become born again. The air feels crisper, the days seem too short. The people. Ahh the people here. How i can remember being new here. Fresh. I feel almost new here again. I guess i took a lot of things for granted after time. Its something everyone cant help but doing. Then some where along the way you just realize how amazing the people in your life are. How much people go out of there way to help me here. In everyday binds and just being there to take some bong hits with and laugh until i piss myself a little.

Adam and I going home for the holidays pretty much summed everything up. Beautiful. I never thought anyone could make me feel this way. Even after a year it still feels refreshing. Not tiring. There is no arguing, only talking and being trusting and open minded. The age diffrence probebly has a lot to do with it. His expirence and me trying to have a positive outlook on things. Trying not to have a 20 year old mind set is working wonders. And as for friends, it couldn't look anymore brighter.

After time. After things becoming so morbid and pathetic in my life I sit here and am honored to have went throught the things i did. Said the shitty things iv said, was inscure and pathetic for a long period. Now iv learned. And with the washed out saying of change comes from with in.. I couldnt agree more.

I'm still at second spin. Trying to get a job as a mail carrier for the post office. A government job making 20 bucks an hour would able me to go back to school next year and get my feet back on the ground. Everything is good here accept the money situation. Money isn't shit until something breaks. And getting a car again would be amazing. No more bus. I will take this all in as things just get better.
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Subject:Here I am stuck in the middle with you
Time:02:00 pm
Current Mood:indescribable
Welp I found a bad ass place to live. It has a computer lab downstairs along with some other grade a shit. It has hardwood floors and a ton of windows. I cant fucking wait to move in. The first of the month. My cousin got me a job at the record shop. So that will be bad ass. Alot of cute boys work there :) Beth my cousins grade a girlfriend is about to come over and we are going to go thrifting for shit for my new apt. I just got done being super sick. I never ever get sick. I think its just the weather change or something. Who knows. I miss cece and my pops. Hes in vegas taking care of my uncle who just got out of the hospital. I sent cece all this shit i got from this rock shop up in the mountains and the fucking postal service lost it! ASSHOLES! Damn! I got a few records yesterday, bob dylan and mountain goats. Other then that just hanging out enjoying this great denver weather, until the snow storm that just hit ohio gets here.

Over and out

p.s i miss canada
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Subject:What is it>
Time:11:07 am
Current Mood:determined
Looking back at all those journal entries left my stomach aching. Its weird. Everyone I used to be so close with was all just a waste of time. I cant feel bad about it anymore. Now I know how people are really supposed to be. Not backstabbing lying ingrates. And I learned alot about myself as well. You are your own best company. It kinda sucks when you get the best because after that you want nothing but. I just have to know that life can hand you bad shit. And boy have I had my fair share of that. But I finally made it to denver. I cant even belive it half the time. Its been a dream for so long. Now its here. And its great. I miss Cece more then I can take. My dark sister. Im glad we got our bats done in canada. That was another insane story.

As of now I am staying with thorin. Im looking for a place, pretty much have the job done. Most likely working at his old record shop. Whats new? I cant see myself doing anything but working with music. Well selling it and shit. Its fun. I like it and makes the time go by.

The weather here has been in the upper 60's and sunny every damn day iv been here. Thats been a little over a week.

Turkey day was great. Me and thorin ate mash po, punkin pie, and a few other grade A dishes. We drank beer and watched planes trains and automobiles. Im so glad to be here. I just cant wait to get my own place. Alex is supposed to be coming out something about him coming through here on his way to california, hes touring with some hippie band. I miss him and dexter so so much.

Drew moved to california about a month or two ago. I cant even remember. But hes coming out one of these weekends when i get my place. I miss his good lovin and curley hair. So he better stick to his word.

I had to get rid of randall which was the saddest part well besides leaving behind my best friend and dad. But I know he is in good hands. Emily is taking grade A care of him.

I have no idea why I am writing in this damn thing. just glad to see my life is turning out into all the things Iv wanted. My mom would be happy to see I finally made it out here, i miss her to much for words. I never thought Id loose her this soon. So unexpected and tragic. But I can handle anything by now. A new city not knowing anyone really, But im already getting to know my way around the city. Alot of great shops and venues. I cant wait for cece to come out so I can take her to some sweet electoclash clubs.

She plans on moving out here with me when her job is up in about a year. Shell be out in the spring to check shit out and all that stuff..

I miss Pk and dano at the record exchange. A whole lot! Almost too much. Who thought. But I still keep in touch with all the kids I miss. Chris too. I miss him way to much. To much for words. I miss all the kids I hung out with all the damn time. Just about the only thing toledo has going for it. It does have a handful of good people. So I hope to find some cool kids out here too.

Who knows how much I will update this, I like to keep it for myself. to see how much shit is changing in my life. Signing off

Anjeluh
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Subject:I stole a poor mans jacket just to stay warm
Time:06:22 pm
Current Mood:happyhappy
We can spend our lives letting the world tell us who we are. Sane or insane. Saints or sex addicts. Heros or victims. Letting history tell us how good or bad we are.
Letting our past decide our future.
Or we can decide for ourselves.
And maybe it's our job to invent something better.
...It's creepy, but here we are, the Pilgrims, the crackpots of our time, trying to establish our own alternate reality. To build a world out of rocks and chaos.
What it's going to be, I don't know.
Even after all that rushing around, where we've ended up is the middle of nowhere in the middle of the night.
And maybe knowing isn't the point.
Where we're standing right now, in the ruins in the dark, what we build could be anything
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